@INSPIREDCHANNEL As I sit here watching the sunrise, I want to write this letter that I have started a thousand times in my head.

Thank you from the depths of my soul for creating the Inspired channel. You have said you knew there was someone out there who needed this; it was me, I needed it! I was trapped in a darkness that I still can't believe I managed to escape. Kristina, that late-night post from a long time ago, I didn't know I would make it out, but you told me “baby steps”, and you were 100% right!

Not only did you shine a light on my path so I could see, but you also introduced @WakeUpToYourself and I on your Christmas call. When I needed that lifeline again, you guided me to her, and for that I am forever grateful for the connection we have! Even though I am here in the US and @WakeUpToYourself lives in Australia, we have become each other's partners on this journey. How she has changed my life, my family's lives, is immeasurable, seriously! The last podcast on the Urine Therapy with Dr. Group was right after my return to Mass for my uncle's funeral. Again, this was a comeback return by the end, but FLFE changed what started as a test for me to a comeback that’s a whole story.

But what's important is that there was a long journey for me to get here, VERY PAINFUL!! But I am so grateful for every bit of it. I see it for what it was and is. I never thought I could find anything close to what I am experiencing now!  Now I understand why I agreed to return. I am a two-time near-death survivor, but again, not what I am trying to write about. The Urine Therapy video- the next few days I couldn't get it out of my mind. What was my problem? Everything else Kristina has guided me to do has been like she’s my guardian angel, ‘so pattern girl, why are you not doing this? It's all logical.’ God would give us the ability to heal ourselves; it would be our own, and it would be free and only work right for you. Then, the doctor appointment, my 84-year-old father has cancer, and he made the choice in that appointment not to find out if his prostate cancer had spread. He said, “why look? That will just scare me. I don’t want their treatment of drugs. My life is good, I am happy, I am walking and going dancing; this is how I want it to end.” I said I totally get it and agree, that's when I made my final decision, I was going to do the Urine Therapy. I have him on FLFE, the Jane Prostate cancer herbals, and Evo360 oils. So this was the last thing to add, but he isn't gonna do that unless I do it first lol. It was more the making of the choice that brought a lot of realizations, because I needed to guide myself to get past that I have a big mouth. When someone asks me what I did to get here, I will be known as the pee pee girl and I knew I needed to get there before doing itwhich told me shit you already know it will work or you wouldn’t have planned on how you were going to handle the judgement when you can't help but own it. Which is me, if I am nothing, I am authentic. I had a major brain injury as a child (1st NDE), but I have amnesia from it, and also had a difficult time memorizing. I remember if I can connect a feeling to it.

Back to my Pee Pee Journey, it's almost 2 weeks, and what's happening is blowing my mind. The clarity, the desire to go even further, to get as conscious as I can. The desire to take this life as far as I can, regardless of how bad the storm gets, we can walk through it. Believe me, I can’t believe what I have walked through. But that’s it, I couldn’t see it, not with the clarity I have now.

The retreat, that simple connection you provided @WakeUpToYourself and I that Christmas. I keep feeling our story of connection could help others see how doable it can be, even with living in opposite time zones, we chat via text and do a video call a few times a week. We have this incredible friendship where, even though we are on opposite sides of the world, we are truly sharing each other's lives. My kids video with her, my small circle all ask me how @WakeUpToYourself is doing or when she will call again, it's simply amazing. The best part was the ease in which it just originally happened- love and intention are very powerful things. There is so much more; my story has become so intertwined, I have taken the entire family on this magic Inspired ride, they know how real the work you do is. They have watched their mother change in front of them and they are following. Consciousness compensation, FLFE!!